Three Hundred and Eighty Four

This is how I really feel right now
Gavin De Graw- Not over you..


Dreams, that's where I have to go
to see your beautiful face, anymore
I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio
Hope, hope there's a conversation
where we both admit we had it good but
until then it's alienation, I know, that much is understood
And I realize

If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two 
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I'm not over you
Not over you

Damn, damn boy you do it well
And I thought you were innocent
You took this heart and put it through hell
But still you're magnificent
I I'm a boomerang doesn't matter how you throw me
Turn around and I'm back in the game
Even better than the old me
But I'm not even close without you

And if I had the chance to renew
You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do
I could get back on the right track
But only if you'd be convinced
So until then

Three Hundred and Eighty Three

The image above says it all..

I am in the situation where Idk 

what am I suppose to do *sigh

Okay.. Fine! Honestly, I miss him!

but I'm afraid to get back together.

& another issue is what's the point

of getting back together since I am

sure that we are never ever gonna 

be together forever until marriage..

All I want is him to be there for me

whenever I need someone to talk 

to, A company for my life, like bff!

How would I know if I am fated to 

experience a divorce with my future

fiance or to face my parent's death..

I need him to comfort me. I'm weak.

but I don't want to be keeping in touch

the whole day, it's sort of wasting my

time to do other stuffs such as spending

time with the telly and my family, time

for my own education.. I know I can't

afford to make time to be there for him.

The end. Head vs. Heart. Who wins? 

Three Hundred and Eighty Two

I spent my evening listening to one of my all-time
favorite singer, singing to the soul of my heart :')

He is a Chinese singer & many of my friends would never
thought that he is considered as favorite lol. He is Jay Chao
The one & only reason why I chosen Jay Chao is because
of the memories I got from playing his oh-so-gentle songs..
Hehee even I can't read his song title written in Chinese :P

It all brings me back to the time when I was with my ex-
I was on the way, in a bus to Hatyai, Thailand for a
family vacation as I was tuning in to Jay Chao's songs
on my playlist, half-asleep & forcing myself to stay
awake just to keep the conversation going with him.

I bet he don't even know that these Jay Chao songs
are so meaningful to me.. but I do know that he still
often reminisces the old times + meaningful songs ;)

Honestly, these songs never fail to bring me
back to the past and I really miss him now :'(
Nuff said. Whatever in the past, stays there!