Another part of my heart. A play girl remains..
Sometimes, I wonder is it worth it to surrender my hands
for you to be the first of my special one to hold my hands?
True that I die a little inside when you place your hand around my
waist but are you doing all these just for me/ to beat the curiosity?
**I used to be so curious on how the heart skips a beat when
the hand intertwine and hugs with someone you love; no kiss.
My friends often tell me that I'm still immature to go after this.
I tell them, I'm sure with my feelings. They got fed up and say
"Follow your heart. It will never wrong. maybe
got lil bit wrong but still correct at the end. LOL"
Besides, I do believe in Karma. This is such a big word lol
I can't agree more that I used to play feelings of other boys.
Lol. They call me a play girl. I just have to admit this now.
With this in my past, I always hope that I'm not a game to you..
This is because
If the feeling aren't real for me, please don't choose to go with me.
I don't want to be a victim of any playboy out there. Please lol
I learn to love already. I don't need karma to teach me the hard way!
Xx.
Hmmphh.. I wonder if you ever notice that I seldom reply
"I love you too" when you say "I love you" so many times.
The most I can do to keep you happy is "less than three".
I never let you know that "I miss you" even how bad it is.
Even when you open up and say "I miss you so much",
I just reply "Aawww.. That's so nice/sweet." up to me.
All these is not because I don't love or miss you at all.
I hope you know that I have issues in trusting you. lol
I fear that you're one of the playboys that will hurt me.
I want to have only one relationship with my first love.
I don't want to fall for someone who doesn't love me.
I know there's nothing I can do to reveal the real you,
if ever you're just playing with my feelings because no
one in my past ever have the ability to do the same :P
That's why I never talk about all these to you either.
Xx.
From another point of view, what if your feelings are truly and real,
I'm not that brave to let my feelings run free when I'm with you yet.
After thinking about it, I will be so sorry to you if ever your feelings
are all real to me. This is also not a good and fair thing. Uh huh :(
In conclusion, 'Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven. The end
#np Taylor Swift- Red :)
P.S. I appreciate your 'Good morning & night' texts.
I really do appreciate your random texts from Japan!
PPS. I can't think of why you never blog/tweet anything about us Hmmphh..
