Three Hundred and Seventy Nine

Today's date 31st, marks the end of January 2013.
Here, I'm proud to make an official announcement!
I'd finally got over it, by passing time, all by myself.
Maybe a little help from my best girlfs', here & there.

One of my gf bestie challenged me to get over all these
within 1 month, but I said, 1 week is more than enough.
& now, my time is over so she owe me rewards. Yayy!

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How am I sure that a part of my feeling has end here?

1. Whenever I play the songs that reminds me of him,
I can enjoy the whole song without skipping over it :)
Even when my little brother play "Just a fool" by Blake
and Christina which did brought a very bad memory to
me, I can still get over it successfully. I grew stronger.

2. Whenever someone mention his name in dialogues,
I do get butterflies in my tummy.. How silly is that! D:
but yesterday, one of my bestie mentioned his name,
& I didn't even bother replying that message lol. That
is the moment I'd realize I did not prior him anymore.

3. Okayy, I admit that I do spend my days dreaming
& reminiscing the good old moments that we had but
I know that I am still strong enough to handle it all :')

4. So basically, I have no more interruptions in life :D

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Whatever is it, I learnt a lot from all these great experiences.
Ups & downs, both bring meaning to my life.. Cheers! XOXO

Three Hundred and Seventy Eight

One fine day, I'll learn the principle of impermanence.
Both happiness and sadness never last throughout life.

You should know that my expectation is just too high.
I am always left in disappointment after talking to you.

The moment I told you I fell sick, you told me to "Get
well soon", as all my other friends did. I appreciate it..
but you did not bother to go the extra mile. There's so
many things you can do to show that you actually care,
text me more frequent to check on me, to remind me
to take my medicine on time, to drink more water, etc.

You always deny when I say that I'm not your priority.
but you never show to prove that you actually bother
to have me around. Do you know how much it hurts?

If you don't make an effort, then why should I? The End.

Three Hundred and Seventy Seven

The day has come. It came too soon. I wasn't ready.
I always feel like I'm an option to you/ maybe I am..

So, I would like to begin this post with a 'Thank you'.
Thank you for teaching me that life isn't always sweet.
Now, I know that I can't always have things my way.
I always gave myself excuses like "I'm pampered by 
my love ones" I want to stay happy forever but No...

One incident has taught me who is the real you.
One night, I was ill. My condition is deteriorating.
I was tempted to text you, manja2 you sikit lahh
Fortunately, thank God. You replied me instantly
and I managed to sleep well that night. Hehee :)

Next day, as usual, I always look forward to the
'Good morning' text from you but there isn't any.
The whole day, you didn't bother to text me at all.
Maybe you thought that for the very first time, you
manage to make me cling to you so you don't have
to put any effort anymore? and just so you know,
You broke your promise. You didn't make my day.

On the bright side, I have more time for myself.
The following day, I don't have to rush my daily
routine to make time to reply your text anymore.
These are the opportunity cost that I've paid :P


Lastly,

You never fail to leave me in regrets. Every time

Three Hundred and Seventy Six

The incident.

Yesterday evening, after work,
my little bro came up to me &
manja2 me, then he asked me
whether do I want to go for a jog
around the compound together?
I did thought about it at work, so it's
fine with me. I'm all energetic for it :)

To my regret, during the activity,
my bro speed up and didn't wait
for me at all. I was mad with him.

When I get home, my mummy came
up to me and asked "So how was it?"
I said "My leg hurts. so no fun" I lied.
After a few minutes, she asked again.
Mummy "You two had fun? How many
rounds you jogged?" Me "I don't know.
You should go & just ask Adrian lahh."

From that point on, my mummy knew
something was not right but little bro
couldn't be bothered by my reactions.
He continue chatting with my mummy.

Bro: Today, in school, there was this girl,
complaining to me that she have no friends.
Mum: Oh really.. What's wrong with her huh?
Bro: She is always moody, like jie jie. That's
why nobody wants or dare to approach her.

I was somehow shocked when I heard it.
That conversation made it bad to worse.
I decided to give him a silent treatment :P

At night, after my daddy came home from work.
My daddy asked me "Why are you so moody?"
I told the truth to my daddy because I know that
he will forever be supporting me in whatever I do.
My mummy overheard it and said "What? Like
that only also angry huh? Come over here. Hug2
I tell Adrian to apologize to you, want or not?"
I said "No need" *tug in to my comfy bed & sleep.

Xx.

The next day, after over-thinking, when I woke

up I realize that I was quite petty about the little

things in my life. I couldn't help it but to use the

silent treatment on the people that I care to cure

these irritating,  annoying, unwanted situation :D

& just so you know, this might come in handy one day :P

P.S. When 1 say jog/run together, I mean there should
be a maximum distance of 1 meter between us. Learn it!

Cheers! xoxo 

Three Hundred and Seventy Five

It's not worth it to keep it all inside
I might as well just blog it all out :)

Xx.
Recently, I've been very active on Twitter.
This is because I relate to the tweet posted
by It's A Teen Thing! & Teen Quotes etc etc.
I know it's childish and lame but somehow,
It made my day/ sometimes ruin my mood.

Besides that, my mummy used to mention the
same thing as the tweets. Now, It made sense.

Here are some of the things that I picked up:

• Sometimes, even it's hard, you have to let go because if you keep 
  holding on, you wouldn't know what's waiting for you out there.
• The thing about love is.. you never catch it by chasing it. 
  Be still, trust and let it come to you at the appointed time.
• Don't let somebody be a priority in your 
  life when you're still an option in their life.

By the way, my lecture also did mention

that we are meant to learn from mistakes. 

I dare you! That is what made us human. 

Three Hundred and Seventy Four

First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR to my love ones.

Obvious enough, this is my first post for the year :)

My resolution for the year 2013 is to be fit in fitness!