Four Hundred and Sixty Five

Here, I would like to share my short term
to long term goals with all of you so that
those judgmental people out there can
further judge my success in the future :)

I shall start with my long term goals first.

When I die, I want to attain supreme

and perfect enlightenment at Nirvana.

After I retire, I wish to travel around the

World with my soul mate that will loves

me, much much more than I love him ;)

After my graduation, I hope to be an

outstanding employee at a top-ranked

overseas company with a good offer/

even better run my own company Heh!

I would also like to graduate with a

first-class honours degree in Bachelor

of Science in Actuarial Science :D

But 1st, I am still enjoying my

2 freaking months of holidays..

That's just me, aiming too high :P

Four Hundred and Sixty Four

Four Hundred and Sixty Three

"Everyone is in search of happiness."
-The first sentence from Baby Blues, the movie.

Challenge #5201314

I am heading to my escape island.
Yes, I am going to Penang, again!
I can't express how excited am I

What makes me even more excited
is that I just told myself to not cling
to him anymore and I'll be heading
to his territory on December 8th to
11th 2013.. Oh the irony. like ikr :P
It's a family vacation, not my fault.

The time round, I am in-charge to
plan where should we dine for
breakfast, brunch, lunch, tea time,
dinner and supper *Just kidding..

I shall make sure that I make at least
one trip down to the beach of Hard
Rock Hotel & we'll also remember
to bring our pair of trainers along so
that we can hike deeper into the
oh-so-joyous Botanical Garden :D

If any of you have any suggestion
to good food heaven, do feel free
to share them with me k Hehee :)

Four Hundred and Sixty Two

Say Hello to the new motivated ME :D

Today, I went out with my bff to buy
some nail polish from Etude House &
watch an not so awesome Cantonese
movie, Baby Blues. Here is the trailer.



Let's give this bff a nickname. I shall
name le bff MY in order to continue :)
MY is one great attention seeker and
I thought I was the greatest of all time.

Coincidentally, MY get to know that
MY's secret admirer.. Hmmphh.. not
so secretive afterall.. So yea hahaa :P
MY's secret admirer is in the mall too.
MY's secret admirer named Mandy.

So MY also get to know that Mandy
is gonna watch the same movie at the
same time too.. Omg! So coincident

In the cinema, MY & me sat the twin
seats while Mandy sat on the ordinary
ones, end of the row,  in front of us lol
We just can't help it but laugh at her ;)

MY purposely hold my hands, whisper
in my ears and even hugged me tightly
whenever Mandy glanced to the back
between the movie scenes.. All these
are of one objective only.. That is to
tell her off but this persistent admirer
will not give up no matter how evil
MJ acts in front of Mandy.. Hahaa!

It was indeed fun making someone
look like a fool but I know that it
is so mean and karma may be
hunting on us anytime. I couldn't
be bothered. As long as I know
my borders well, I won't go over
the line just to harm anyone else :)

P.S. We decided to watch Baby Blues
because we are not the Thor or super
heroes type of person.. Hehee! :D

Four Hundred and Sixty One

Honestly, thoughts of him is still lingering
around my mind. I can't help it, especially
recently, God declared TWO(2) freaking
months of weekends for me. Oh Yeah! :)

I swear I won't rot.
I will be as productive as I possibly can!
I will entertain myself with lots of baking,
reading, watching, the list never ends lol.

As I've consulted some friends for advice,
I've decided that I will take this route. The
route to my own freedom of expression &
speech. I don't want to be stuck with these
empty hopes of him anymore. I think it is
time that I need a full stop of heart ache.

Lucky him. I've not plan what to say to
him yet but one of my friend suggested
that I shall talk, explain and express my
feelings towards him directly rather than
questioning him on the gap between us
right now nor expressing by song lyrics.

--
Yesterday, perlawanan akhir bola sepak
piala Malaysia was held at Stadium Shah
Alam. The venue that gives me too much
to remember. Gosh.. memories of our 1st
concert together flow through me like the
Niagara Falls. It's a little extreme though.

I still remember the very first time he held
my hands, like it was yesterday while in
actual fact, the time is 20th September 
2012. I appreciated his bravery. I admire
his confidence. Yes, honestly, I really do!
I miss the times when our hands intertwine.

--
Back to the point, I think that I have been
patience enough with his mixed messages.
It's time I want need a direction to head.
So it is either yes or no only.
Every night, I wonder Are there just one 
or two paths ahead of us right now?

I understand that I did say "Wait for me
until my graduation." but the point is do
you still remember our promises made?
I don't feel like same like before anymore.
Truly, I am feeling insecure right now :(

I place these in the hands of God.
Meanwhile, I strongly believe that
time can heal, it eventually will :')

Four Hundred and Sixty

As promised in the previous blog entry,
I shall share with y'all the benefits that I
will enjoy if I never go to work righttt :P

Every time I think about work, I think
about him, never fail. This is because
I still cannot forget the day he made
me cry like asdfghjkl *Gosh. I can't
find the right words to express the
moment, beginning of this year 2013.

Just A Fool by Christina Aguilera featuring
Blake Shelton is playing in the background.
At that moment, I can perfectly relate every
words in the lyrics to the feelings that I was
feeling. Now, time helped me heal better ;)

My mummy sat beside me. She is listening
to me as I told her that he pushed me to
the end of a cliff with his words "All or
Nothing". I can remember everything as
if it just happened yesterday, but no :)
Btw, my mummy cried with me *blush

So that now I don't have to go to work,
I have more entertaining stuffs to do. I
won't have to go back to the same old
oh-so-painful memory as often as then.

--
Please excuse me as I do have Co-op
assignment to complete. So, I am left
with less time to think of inspirations
to blog.. That is one benefit though ;)