Hey guys. After 7 months, I decided to write again.
Why? I can't contain all these emotions anymore.
So here goes nothing. *keeping my fingers cross
Let's rewind to that fine day dated 20042014
I thought that this will be our new beginning..
After a year or two, this is the day we started
talking to each other again. The conversation
started when he asked me on Twitter if I'm
alright as I'd tweeted that I was nearly involved
in a speedy car accident. The same night, he
whatsapped me & the chat went on and on ;)
A few days after-- I can't help it but just to go
back to the day that he made me cry so bad
till I was late for work, back to December :(
These thoughts left me moody and emo-ing
My mummy offered me to open up to her
Without further thoughts, I told her what
I felt about him and all, without noticing
that all I said was the negative side of him.
A week down the road-- I approached him to
do me a favor of just letting me go and live my
own life. He told me that I practically wasted
his time and effort to give me another chance
after waiting for me for about 8 years or so.
Since then, I knew that we are fated this way
& we are meant to be together no matter what.
Checkpoint. 0520.2014-- I woke up to
his Good morning text and he was the first
one to wish me Happy 520.. really grateful.
As time goes on, things work fine between us.
Randomly, I told him to take a few days
leave and come to KL for holiday on the
last week of June as my mummy will be
away for a week & this will be a very great
chance for us to spend more time together.
Out of expectation, he replied me sternly
saying that he got work to do.. bla bla bla
On 20062014, I asked him that we've been
talking everyday for 2 months now, did you
even notice this? He answered me a big no.
14072014-- We had the longest chat ever!
It started out with the usual "At school ar"
then it goes on and on, he randomly asked
"Whn u coming penang" I was shocked lol
If I'm not mistaken, this is the second time
he asked me this q in such a short period.
I guess this should be the time to be honest
with him, tell him that even if I go all the way
to Penang for a family vacation, I won't be
able to meet up with him because I don't
know what will my parents say if I were to
ask for their permission to go out with him.
My bad, I gave him a whole lot of excuses.
He then said "Macam u bo sim wanna meet
also one". Gosh, I didn't mean to make him
think this way. He needs to understand that
I too want to meet up with him but I don't
want to be left in disappointment if it fails.
I actually felt warm that he cared for us :)
These few days, he is so busy working with
the YB that he didn't even text me once a
day. At least, he replied my Good morning.
Yesterday, my bff told me that she wants
to have a heart-to-heart talk with her boyf
and all that elaborations made me felt so
grateful to still have him here whenever I
need someone to lean on when I'm down.
Yesterday too I finally got to watch TFIOS.
Sad to say, I didn't shed a tear throughout
the whole movie. Yea, I felt so heartless lol
Then, my lil bro and I watch Captain Phillips.
Another movie that taught me to appreciate
life as it comes, no matter good or bad times.
When midnight strikes, a devastating news
of MH17 plane was shot down. Shocked :O
I must really cherish every moment spent
with my love ones. I text him Good night.
Behind that two simple words, I actually
intended to express gratitude to be by my
side until today; I am starting to trust you.
All these life lesson made me cry to sleep.
18072014-- This morning, after talking to my
mummy about my friends & their oh-so-lovely
relationships, my mummy highlighted to me
that, if within such a short period of time there
is already so much ups and downs, all these
are gonna last for centuries in the future ;)
Are you up for the challenge? I cannot answer.
August is just around the corner and so the
thoughts of celebrating my birthday together
with him at the end of the 8th month pop up.
