Three Hundred and Seventy Three

Sunday Shopping Spree! :D

I never felt so good after spending so much $$.

This morning. I woke up missing him so much.
I am so tempted to text him & fortunately, he
already sent me the usual 'Morning love' Heh.

As my day goes on,
My little bro decided to go to Sony Centre,
located at The Curve, Mutiara Damansara

On the way, I have a sudden crave for tom yam.
and in my opinion, Johnny's Restaurant offer one
of the best tom yam. The next thing I know my
little bro interrupted that he wants to eat unagi!

Once we got a nice parking, we head there.
After leaving my lil bro's DSLR at the centre,
my daddy drop by a Camel Active outlet. &
there goes hours and hours of guys shopping.
Guys shopping is much worst than girls shop!

Why I think so? Both my daddy and lil bro
are very particular when it comes to buying
new outfits. They always expect perfection.

They shop so much. My legs start to hurt.
I become moody. I tell my mummy I want
to walk alone. I entered the  Adidas Women
outlet (The first in South East Asia lol) :P

I intended to try on some striking, good
pair of running shoes. The sales girl then
introduced me to one light-weighed and
another cushioning shoe. Idk the model.

All I know is once I put on the shoes,
I walk a few steps down the aisle and
my leg, by miracle, never hurt anymore.
I never believe in such miracle to happen
on a running shoes until a pair of Adidas.

When I get home, my daddy and lil bro
put on their East India Company tees,
shirts and trousers to test for a better.
They are all so satisfied, they smiled.

Those smile on their faces made my day.
I'm so happy when they are so happy :)
All the pain in my leg and moodiness,
all gone in an instant, never felt so good!

P.S. I got myself 2 tees' from Diesel. Yay!

Three Hundred and Seventy Two

D for December. D for Dream

Seriously.. I've been dreaming!

So bad that I even get numb lol

I don't want to face the reality

because I know the fact sucks.

Three Hundred and Seventy One

On this last day of Earth,

I would like to confess:

Missing you is my hobby,

Caring for you is my job,

Make you happy is my duty,

and loving you is my life :)

&

冬至快乐!

Three Hundred and Seventy

Hmmphh..
I admit that previously, I did dreamed about us
but I never wish for the dream to come through.

I hope that you willl respect my decision
to remain like this until my graduation..
Celebrating 7 years & counting. Nuff said :)

Xx.
This article is damn true. I couldn't agree more lol

P.S. I'm blogging in the office, LIKE A BOSS :D

Three Hundred and Sixty Nine

LOVE is in the air. 19th December 2012
Happy Anniversary to my Daddy and Mummy!
It used to be double happiness but now, we're
double (Double happiness) = 4 Happiness ♥
because of the annoying little brother and me :D

On this auspicious day, I would like to share a little story :)
It's about a conversation I had with my mum & colleague.

Mummy: Girl, today is mummy and daddy's anniverysary.
We've been together since 1988. So you calculate lahh..
Me: Oh.. I don't want lahh :P
*Press calculator (2012-1988=24 years r/s)
*Conversation goes on and on, until..
Mummy: Whatever. Ok lahh. So come home earlier k
Me: Alright. See you later. Bye
Mummy: Love you. Bye :)

Me: Hey. Have you ever give your parents anniversary gift?
Colleague: No. My parents not so loving one..
Me: Oh lol.. Any idea why my mummy tell me about their anniversary?
Colleague: Idk. Let me think first k.
A few minutes later
Colleague: Oh. I get it d. She wants you to tell your daddy.
Me: Oh really. Alright. I will be the messenger & reminder Hehee..

Unfortunately, my little brother already betrayed my mummy lol.


On the other hand, we treated love like a sport.

Three Hundred and Sixty Eight

This is a very beautiful motivational post
The Girl Who Played With Fire. It's me :(
My mummy used to warn me not to play with fire.
& Now, I'm the one who got burned Hmmphh..

Ever wonder about what he's doing
How it all turned to lies
Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Eh, eh, eh

Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy
Even when it's not right

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Ever worried that it might be ruined
And does it make you wanna cry?
When you're out there doing what you're doing
Are you just getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by by by

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

Three Hundred and Sixty Seven

If fear didn't exist, I'd run up to you and tell you that I love you.
Nuff said.

#np Distance by Christina Perri

Three Hundred and Sixty Six

Another part of my heart. A play girl remains..

Sometimes, I wonder is it worth it to surrender my hands
for you to be the first of my special one to hold my hands?
True that I die a little inside when you place your hand around my
waist but are you doing all these just for me/ to beat the curiosity?
**I used to be so curious on how the heart skips a beat when
the hand intertwine and hugs with someone you love; no kiss.

My friends often tell me that I'm still immature to go after this.
I tell them, I'm sure with my feelings. They got fed up and say
"Follow your heart. It will never wrong. maybe
got lil bit wrong but still correct at the end. LOL"

Besides, I do believe in Karma. This is such a big word lol
I can't agree more that I used to play feelings of other boys.
Lol. They call me a play girl. I just have to admit this now.

With this in my past, I always hope that I'm not a game to you..
This is because shit love just got real & my feelings are real now :)
If the feeling aren't real for me, please don't choose to go with me.
I don't want to be a victim of any playboy out there. Please lol

I learn to love already. I don't need karma to teach me the hard way!

Xx.
Hmmphh.. I wonder if you ever notice that I seldom reply
"I love you too" when you say "I love you" so many times.
The most I can do to keep you happy is "less than three".

I never let you know that "I miss you" even how bad it is.
Even when you open up and say "I miss you so much",
I just reply "Aawww.. That's so nice/sweet." up to me.

All these is not because I don't love or miss you at all.
I  hope you know that I have issues in trusting you. lol
I fear that you're one of the playboys that will hurt me.
I want to have only one relationship with my first love.
I don't want to fall for someone who doesn't love me.

I know there's nothing I can do to reveal the real you,
if ever you're just playing with my feelings because no
one in my past ever have the ability to do the same :P
That's why I never talk about all these to you either.

Xx.
From another point of view, what if your feelings are truly and real,
I'm not that brave to let my feelings run free when I'm with you yet.
After thinking about it, I will be so sorry to you if ever your feelings
are all real to me. This is also not a good and fair thing. Uh huh :(

In conclusion, 'Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven. The end


#np Taylor Swift- Red :)

P.S. I appreciate your 'Good morning & night' texts.
I really do appreciate your random texts from Japan!

PPS. I can't think of why you never blog/tweet anything about us Hmmphh..

Three Hundred and Sixty Five

When I miss you, 
There's only 2 things that I will do.
#1 Over-thinking on disasters.
#2 Dreaming about our future.


#1 goes something like this.

All I want is a boyf who will never cheat on me..
I'm not sure are you the one for me.. Hmmphh :/


#2 goes something like this :)

So in order that I don't get hurt when things end unexpectedly,

I choose to do so.

Lastly, I hope you know this :)

Three Hundred and Sixty Four

A long-awaited post :)

I took so long to start writing about this because
I feel so difficult to put my feelings and thoughts
all in one, down on a post in my blog & diary.

I can't be describing all my feelings from the start..
Whatever comes to my mind right now, It's all here.
Deal with it. This is gonna be very spontaneous :P

I've spent time reading articles & quotes on Twitter.
All of those has helped me organize my mind better.

One of the many articles is here.
Eric Charles has helped me by
sharing his guy's point of view 
with this anonymous girl who has
almost the same experience with me.

Another article is this.
Sabrina Alexis reminded me about freedom.
Yes, I agree. I also want to remain my space.
I'll be happier if I live it this way. My way :D

I also read another article on Symptoms of Love.
There are 8 points. All so comical yet true Hehee

#np  Taylor Swift- Everything has changed (feat. Ed Sheeran)

P.S. I'm not officially done yet. More to come ;)

Three Hundred and Sixty Three

If it can't even last over the night, how is it gonna last forever?

I think I just ended our 7 years of friendship, by accident.

What a day.
I cried until I am late for work.
I think you'll be happy with you read the above. 

Safe journey to Japan. 


Xx.

Oh. Every word of this song make sense to me. 
Amazing that I understood the song as a whole.

Just a fool- Christina aguilera duetw/ Blake shelton
P.S. Blake is my favourite country artist :')

HAPPY 12.12.12 :)

HAPPY 12.12.12 :)

I listened to hitz.fm this morning on my way to work
& it gave me an inspiration to write about myself.

The 12-years-ago me

Basically, back then,
I celebrated millennium when I was 8 years old..
that was too young to even understand the World.

I remembered that y2k is a very important year
to many people in the world but to me, that time,
I just take it as another year for me to grow ;)

Now, I find it really pointless to take dates seriously.
I mean like 10.11.12 or 12.12.12. It's just numbers.
So what?!

Ikr. The bottom part of my post is like contradicting
with the top part of the post lol :P

Anyway, the only difference between the old and
new me is my age (obviously) & my mind-set.
I used to trust people around me and now, no more.

P.S. I purposely reached office early to update a post :D

Attention to health is life's greatest hindrance

The Month of May. Turning point of life.
I'm hardly coping with my freshman days
& problems, difficulties, bad situations,
just keep on flowing into my life non-stop.
I Thank God it only lasted for a few days!

With this motivation, I've gone through those shits.

So my first day of University goes like this,

My first classroom experience in Uni

Hang out spot: Library

That's all for a brief introduction. xoxO

Is really that difficult?

Hmmphh.. Many are interested in my future.
Relatives & friends always ask about my
tertiary education and life in University
yes, all these may sound motivating but
on the other side, whenever they ask
"What course you choose?" and then
I answered "Actuarial Science" *waits*

They usually have two reactions.

Option #1.
The not-so-updated people will respond..
"Huh? What course is that? Natural Science?"
"What is it about? What career can you proceed?"

Option #2.
The smarter community will reply
"Why? That course very difficult wan wor?"

Tough, difficult, hard are words they used to describe my course.

On my uni Orientation Day, the Dean of faculty,
Dr. Toh reminded us that we have to really
sacrifice our entertainment moments to study
hardcore to do well and succeed as a First
Class Honors Degree in order to be able to
find a good company with a good superior..

Ofcourse what he mentioned above was just
common sense, who doesn't know them right?
but the thing is most all, everyone who I spoke
to about my course replied that it's difficult..
Now I am wondering is it really that difficult

First semester course selection

Recently, I'm forced to face a challenge of arranging
my very own timetable for lectures and tutorials.
In university level, we call it course selection.. :)
I had finally understand the pain in the ass that
my previous school teachers and their team
had suffered for all these years

Miss Mary Andrew Bebola Peters, 

You are considered the most dedicated teacher in my history.
I never had a teacher that is so willing to run extra classes 

during holidays just to makesure that we manage to finish 

learning the syllabus in time, until God introduced you to me..

I remembered the days when you used to call out one of 

the Chinese gangs in my form six class to stop them from 

communicating in Mandarin during Chemistry class.. 

We all know that it will help them improve their 

command in English but they never listened lol

Besides, I also remembered when you complaint

so much about a New timetable arrangement. 

I thought it was an easy peasy thing.. I thought 

you were just worried about us being such 

naughty students of yours. 

Now that I finally understand what you've gone 

through, I really think that you're much more

than a super woman. You worth a noble prize!!

Now back to my part :P
So yea, I'm done with my course selection & 

I'm grateful to announce that I only have classes 

on Monday, Tuesday and Friday. 

My mummy is happy too. Hehee! <3

At first, I really hope that I'm able to squeeze my 

classes to Monday and Tuesday only because of 

my travelling time and high petrol consumption.. 

Eventhough my friends did say that such arrangement 

is gonna be very tiring & real suffering..

Then when I'm in the process of doing 

course selection, I realise that 2 of the 

tutorials that I wanted to attend was fully occupied :(

It seriously made me upset. Total mood swing, I tell you!

After I'm done with my course selection, I went 

back chatting with my besties.. Then I realised 

that my timetable arrangement ain't that bad afterall.. 

Its so much better than travelling to uni 5 days a week
I'm back to the happy me again Hehee!! <3

P.s. I learnt a lesson to complete my course selection 

as soon as possible to compete tutorial occupancy

with my uni mates Hahaa.. XD

My First Labor Day :)

Just a short update.

1st of May, It's Labor Day!
It's my 1st time I officially celebrate Labor Day.
Yes, I'm very proud to broadcast this to y'all..!

I've been working for about 3 months now.
I'm happy with my boss &colleagues Hehh!

Bye :D

My temporary working experiences XD

Uh huh.. It's a Monday again

But I had a satisfying breakfast that is English breakfast tea with cookies. So yea, that provided me a great start for the day.

No Monday blues :)

I was thinking of writing this post from office. Yea, you got that right..

I was in the office & its lunch time. hehh! :D

I've been working with my mummy's friend in her aluminium factory for about 3 months already..

Time past so fast huh.. I'd learnt many new skills and ofcourse this gave me the opportunity to meet many new people of upper class and also those not so fortunate ones plus rude and polite people too.. Hmmphh

I do hope that this simple yet meaningful introduction to the big, wild world out there would help me cope better with tough obstacles in the near future :)

Besides, I'm thankful to have such a wonder lady boss and colleagues <3

They are willing to teach and share opinions as our company are running 6 project concurrently.

I think that they really worth an award for this good values in them..

So as lunch time is almost over..

Its time to get back to business

Xoxo

A new day. The same thoughts.

Yeap. Some more inspiration to write for the holiday..
I've planned to take a week break for max holiday :D

This morning, my mummy ordered my lil bro to
break my morning sleep.. So what should I say?
I can't blame anyone for this because Yes, I've
slept very late yesterday. No, I mean morning.
I turned down by 2 in the morning which is
consider very late for a teen like me. Uh huh!
I simply love to spend time chatting with my
friends that my mummy hardly trust. Yeap!
So what! You got problem with my attitude?

& When I have attitude, my mummy never
help me to overcome them but she's just
making things worst by criticizing me in front
of my daddy and bro. and Gods know how
much she criticize me by the back.. Sigh?

"It's just a period of time" I mentioned repeatedly.

Besides, out of the blue. Damn TheStarOnline
posted an article of Children in Cyber World!
My daddy, I ain't sure on purpose or not but
yea, he read it out loud to me, I ain't sure it's
with a certain objective or not. but Uh huh
I've felt the pinch from every words in that!
Article Title: Do you know who your kids are talking to?
Unnecessary trouble maker. Heng :P

So that's about me, not being in a good state
with anyone at home. Hmmphh. Home, No..
It feels more like a foreign country.. That's it

I'm off. Gtg bake some lasagne for them ;)

So this is my new me. Hehh!

Hello dear readers,
I understand that the previous post was awful wordy
& my bad for not warning a wordy post ahead =P

So here am I to apologize with a piece of photo ;)

I would just like to share a thumbnail of landmarks
all around the World that would really help bring
 more meaning to my already-meaningful life =D

Besides, a little from my daily :)

I've started Uni. Last Wednesday was my orientation.
It was obviously the unforgettable, maybe worst day
in my uni history. I really do hope so.. Hmmphh..
I can't do anything else to make it better.
I've already tried to smile to everyone I met
but the seniors nor the bitches & lala just wouldn't
know how to respond to my sweet yet precious smile.
So all I can do is bear these all by myself.
No one else can really understand what I really felt,
deep inside. So no point explaining more

Anyway, on the happier side, I've managed to
squeeze my timetable to Monday & Tuesday
only on my course selection column. So now,
I'm just waiting for the admins and lecturers
to approve it. Pray hard for me yea.. Hehh!

P.S. Latest event happening today is Bersih, ptptn & lynas peaceful assembly happening in Dataran Merdeka, KL. I'm neutral as always :)

I am not 'the old me' anymore..

So here I am again, with my inspiration to write
about my friendship issue. I'm having a problem!
The problem is me, I've trusted them, maybe
Trusted them too much.. I've been dumb for
all these years of friendship with most of them ):


Here, I have friend #1, #2, #3, #4, #5, & #6.
Hehh. I'm proud to say I have many friends :D


Okay. 


Friend #1.
Yesterday, out of the blue, an unknown number
pop-out on my WhatsApp while I was chatting
with one of my bestie, The pretty Cecilia CWL..
I read the unknown number out loud a few times
& suddenly a memory glanced through my mind :O
Without bothering about the topic I was chatting
with Cecilia, I just interrupted the conversation &
asked what was my ex-boyfriend's number which
I deleted it roughly 2 years ago Lol. It matched =\
My heart sinks immediately. I told my bestie about
the feeling in me & she think it's really weird of me.
I dont think so because whenever my ex comes 
back to me, I really feel very uncomfortable. Idk.
I have nothing more to say about this friend. Hehh


Friend #2.
I trusted this friend too much. He overused it ):
Proud to say, we've been friends since 2006
& the not-so-good thing is he's been overusing 
my trust since 2008.. Hmmphh. I know. 
I've been really blind all these years. I didn't 
know guys really ignore their inner ego to do 
all it takes for this relationship between us.. 


Friend #3. 
She is a boy. That my mummy can't trust lol
I knew her during my days in sixth form lower. 
She was just an ordinary fifth former with a
huge crowd of fan whenever she goes around.
Recently, we've got a little closer than before.
I just went out with her for a simple tea time 
chat after a gap left for lots of catch up to do.
& I got my mummy worried for the whole day.
Now that my friend is in upper sixth form, I do
trust that she won't simply take unnecessary
actions on me even thought she is a clubber,
smokers, mat-rempit, a spoilt brad. Hahh..
She's got a brain, more creative than mine <3 


Friend #4.
This friend of mine. I love her ever since
the gap between us drawn further apart.. 
Hehh. I know. Tragedy do happen =P
Now, I've added her into my list of 
friends that 'I really trusted and willing
to share whenever my mummy isn't
available for me' which is a.k.a. my
none other than lovie besties list :D
Previously, she helped me overcome
one of my problem in education. She
is the only one in my class that is willing
to be my mentor, spent sufficient time
to explain all chemistry problems! 
I'm really thankful to God for introducing
such kind soul to my life. Thank God :)


Friend #5 and #6.
These are my besties since secondary school.
So I always love them. They had never put
me down, so far, as far as I can recall. Hehh..
So I'm also really thankful to have them in my
life & my mummy do trust them. I'm happy!
They had taught me many things that others
are unwilling to teach me. I trust them a lot. 
From boys, relationship to beauty tips, they
are the one that I also go to whenever I'm
in trouble. I know I'm useless but that's 
the only time I had for them. Hehh. Anyway,
I'm happy with my life & they're happy too! 


So, right. The above are a few of my current close friends, trusted and untrustworthy ones.