Three Hundred and Seventy Nine

Today's date 31st, marks the end of January 2013.
Here, I'm proud to make an official announcement!
I'd finally got over it, by passing time, all by myself.
Maybe a little help from my best girlfs', here & there.

One of my gf bestie challenged me to get over all these
within 1 month, but I said, 1 week is more than enough.
& now, my time is over so she owe me rewards. Yayy!

--
How am I sure that a part of my feeling has end here?

1. Whenever I play the songs that reminds me of him,
I can enjoy the whole song without skipping over it :)
Even when my little brother play "Just a fool" by Blake
and Christina which did brought a very bad memory to
me, I can still get over it successfully. I grew stronger.

2. Whenever someone mention his name in dialogues,
I do get butterflies in my tummy.. How silly is that! D:
but yesterday, one of my bestie mentioned his name,
& I didn't even bother replying that message lol. That
is the moment I'd realize I did not prior him anymore.

3. Okayy, I admit that I do spend my days dreaming
& reminiscing the good old moments that we had but
I know that I am still strong enough to handle it all :')

4. So basically, I have no more interruptions in life :D

--
Whatever is it, I learnt a lot from all these great experiences.
Ups & downs, both bring meaning to my life.. Cheers! XOXO

Three Hundred and Seventy Eight

One fine day, I'll learn the principle of impermanence.
Both happiness and sadness never last throughout life.

You should know that my expectation is just too high.
I am always left in disappointment after talking to you.

The moment I told you I fell sick, you told me to "Get
well soon", as all my other friends did. I appreciate it..
but you did not bother to go the extra mile. There's so
many things you can do to show that you actually care,
text me more frequent to check on me, to remind me
to take my medicine on time, to drink more water, etc.

You always deny when I say that I'm not your priority.
but you never show to prove that you actually bother
to have me around. Do you know how much it hurts?

If you don't make an effort, then why should I? The End.

Three Hundred and Seventy Seven

The day has come. It came too soon. I wasn't ready.
I always feel like I'm an option to you/ maybe I am..

So, I would like to begin this post with a 'Thank you'.
Thank you for teaching me that life isn't always sweet.
Now, I know that I can't always have things my way.
I always gave myself excuses like "I'm pampered by 
my love ones" I want to stay happy forever but No...

One incident has taught me who is the real you.
One night, I was ill. My condition is deteriorating.
I was tempted to text you, manja2 you sikit lahh
Fortunately, thank God. You replied me instantly
and I managed to sleep well that night. Hehee :)

Next day, as usual, I always look forward to the
'Good morning' text from you but there isn't any.
The whole day, you didn't bother to text me at all.
Maybe you thought that for the very first time, you
manage to make me cling to you so you don't have
to put any effort anymore? and just so you know,
You broke your promise. You didn't make my day.

On the bright side, I have more time for myself.
The following day, I don't have to rush my daily
routine to make time to reply your text anymore.
These are the opportunity cost that I've paid :P


Lastly,

You never fail to leave me in regrets. Every time