Four Hundred and Fifty Nine

I am considered the happiest girl on earth,
not because I succeed in my r/s or w/ever!
The feeling is actually much better than that.
I am feeling the best feeling in the world
when one wish had came through. Yay! :D

Okay.
I've been secretly wishing that I will not have
to do internship, just like most of my China
friends from university. Their parents run the
company in China. So, they won't have to
bother to wake up early and suffer work!
I wish I have 2 months holiday just like them.

So, as I do not have any close relatives with
big companies, I am suppose to be an intern
during 1st November-31st December 2013.
I've asked my direct superior from previous
company to help me out with issuing an offer
letter to my university and the following oh-
so-complicated procedures. It's all settled!

Next, I have to go to university, just to find
my Co-op Coordinator, Mr. Jeff and Ms.
Norhidayati of CECS to acknowledge my
approval form. I'd faced some hiccups but
it all went well after awhile waiting. Phhew!

Obviously, by now, I am expected to report
myself to office tomorrow but suddenly, I
received a call from my superior saying that
they have sufficient staffs already. Omgomg!

I was excited like mad. On the other side of
the phone, my superior feel so sorry for me!
like wth. What in the World is this logic! :P

There are actually so many advantages if I
never to go office end of this year Hahaa! :D
Too much to share right now. Next entry!

Four Hundred and Fifty Eight

Nothing much.. Just missing him :(

That's us, during his Prom, last September.

Four Hundred and Fifty Seven

Honestly, it bothers me so much,
it interrupted my finals revision :'(

You actually spend your time talking
to other girls while you told me that
you are busy with your whatever
God knows what applications lahh..

I am totally not assuming anything!
It is obvious that I mean nothing
to you. Yet, whenever I force you
to admit that your feelings for me
has fade, in return, you deny me
& blame me for thinking too much.
Like wth. You think that ignoring
the past will guarantee a bright
future? Please, God damn No.

In addition, it seems like you
don't trust me anymore huh?
Fine! Just sit back and let me
show you what I'm made of.

All or nothing? 

P.S. I feel that this is too harsh
to say it right in your face. So
I have to blog it out. In hopes
that you will read this entry,
in my dreams. Do me a favor, Stay in my life--

Four Hundred and Fifty Six

Omg. I was reading www.horoscope.com
while I am suppose to be drafting answers
for Fundamental of Management finals :P

and I am so excited to share this finding with
all my readers. It is too good to be true! :'D

"A self-confident and sexy Monkey can be lucky in love this year! Expect a good deal of flirting. Enjoy being appreciated wherever you go. Things may really heat up in late July."          -Horoscope.com

As you all know, my life was a little f.up
during July. It was perfectly stated here.
I know it is too late that I just realize it
but still, that statement was perfectly
describing my year as a monkey zodiac.

How could I even say that I do not
believe in horoscopes? No. never :P

Four Hundred and Fifty Five

Honestly, I rather go to my bff instead
of starting a conversation with you :P
It's sad but true. Idk why is it so hard
for me to even say a simple Hi to you.

Indeed, I know this is bad for us but
I just can't help to sit here and just
wait for you to make the first move.

I think there is no difference that we
are of the same time zone compared
to when you are in Europe because
no matter what time of the day, we
are still not talking to each other as
frequent as we did before. So yea..

 Even though that day when you said
"eloo why nv spam me =(" on fbm,
you actually triggered me and you
didn't make me day. Lucky you, my
exam was easy. If not, I am sure
that you'll be busted by then Hahaa.

Besides that, you already know my
true color when you're stalking me
on my Twitter.. So what else you
want me to do huh? Your turn lahh
I need some security from you too.

Four Hundred and Fifty Four

I know I shouldn't take it as a big deal
but hmmphh.. I just can't stop myself
from thinking about yesterday night..
Maybe it's me, my mood, my fault.

To be honest, that conversation was
the worst chat I had with you yknow
Like seriously.. only God knows why
must I have such bad times with you

Beginning of the week, you told me
that you miss me.. Is it even real?
I don't see you proving it to me :(

I really don't mind waiting.. but
waiting for someone who treats
me like something of no value is
not what I ever wanted. Indeed,
I know we are just friends but
that's not how you treat someone
who you want to spend the whole
life with. We have nothing much
in common anymore. So may I
just ask, what is the point of us
forcing ourselves to be together?

-Emo, not ego. Nuff said

Four Hundred and Fifty Three

"Aawww really.. I'm so touched! Thanks"

Today, God knows why everyone, yea I
mean everyone around me is just so kind
to me man. I really appreciate it so much!

1. My family
They have always been as kind to me since
day one, giving me support from all aspects
to go through hard times. E.g. examination.
I love my mummy, daddy & little brother :')

2. Sandra
My bff hanged out with me, just before my
paper today. Every minute spent with her
is really fun and meaningful. She even gave
me a pink vintage watch. Love it Hehh! :D

3. Mr. Gopal
My Corporate Finance lecturer who had
always been so unkind to keep all the tips
by himself, called me personally to give
me the finals tips.. Can you even believe
it? Yeap, indeed a jaw drop moment lol

4. CF classmate of China nationality
This boy shared his answers with me
during the test. Hahaa! Why not huh?
I'm just being honest here..
Sharing is caring *laugh :P

5. Another CF classmate, which I don't
even know her nationality. Sorry hehh..
Btw, she gave me her finals notes to take
photos, even my sir don't allow me ;)

Omg. I must be so lucky to have these
people in my life! I know I've always
been lucky all my life. But today is
just extremely lucky, to do extent
that I must blog about it Hahaa :D

In you, I trust.

Four Hundred and Fifty Two

Think back of the day before yesterday,
When I said "Imy"  and you replied me
with a full "i miss you too". Hmmphh..
Yea, that was so nice and impressive :')

You know what, if I were you, I wouldn't
reply the significant other with a full imy
if s/he is reluctant to type that simple line.
lol. So don't ever think of typing imy only.
To be honest, I bet you know that it was
not easy for me to tell you that as I am
really all-for-self-importance type of girl.

Now, I feel really bad for my actions
and willing to apologize to you openly.
So yea, take this sorry and I promise
to try better next time. Take note that
I didn't promise not to say "imy" ever. =P

You cannot love another person and expect to be loved in return unless you love yourself first!
-Carrie Bradshaw

Four Hundred and Fifty One

Last weekend, I had to attend an event
in university which requires me to wear
Actuarial Science Student Association
(ASSA) t-shirt. I've purchased the tee
long time ago but never wear it before.

My mummy voluntarily searched through
my wardrobes for the t-shirt & tirelessly
ironed it for me before I got home after
the Corporate Finance class on Friday.

Indeed, I was so touched by her actions.
I know she often do all the house chores
at home without anyone's favor as we are
all so lazy and demotivated to help her..

So yea, I love my mummy very much! :D

Four Hundred and Fifty

I don't know how to judge whether
is it good or bad that you only read
my tweets and never visit my blog..
Sometimes, I need some privacy but
sometimes, I have to give you a signal
by indirectly messaging you.. Hahaa!

Hmmphh.. I have a secret between
my bff and me. I told her that I am
on the verge of giving up on our
friendship but on second thought,
I really cannot go on without this..

Obviously, since the beginning of
this year, I have been trying to let
things go but.. In August, you just
wished me a "Happy Birthday" &
I fell for you all over again. No lie.

Now, I finally noticed that I really
don't have the ability to force and
make a conversation last forever.
I really am a failure when it comes
to it.. Only my mummy & him can.
& If only they're willing to talk lol.

--
To Bee Chea, if you're reading this,
I hope your elbow get well soon :D

Four Hundred and Forty Nine

I was so glad to find your name
pop up on my phone with a text
saying "Just got home" at 9pm :)

I was so glad to know that we're
finally on the same time zone :D

I was also glad you noticed that
my tweets were about you lol! :P

As the conversation goes on, all you
said was "Don't think too much" huh
U're right. I think too much, at times.

I really appreciate that you admit
you do think of me a lot too Heh!
You thought of the times we had,
like last year, during your Prom :)

Oh yeah & the fact that you miss the
times our hand intertwine each other.

I was feeling that awesome moment
when you know someone else have
the same feeling or thoughts as you.

P.S. One thing that really make me
look up upon you is that you'll still
accompany me even you're gaming.
Yes, I really appreciate your time :D

P.P.S I never expect us to chat so
much about the past times we had.
I was indeed surprised and happy!

Four Hundred and Forty Eight

Omg. I am so tempted to paint

my nails right now.. Hahaa! :D

I just found this wonderful site

where it displays pretty nails!!

Hmmphh.. I'm so busy recently.

My weekend is so occupied :(

I have appointments & events.

I was invited by a committee 

member of Actuarial Science 

Student Association (ASSA) 

to help out on Sunday to sell

food during convocation :P

In return, I'll be earning 8 ECA

points for 6 hours service. Yay!

I don't even have time for my

Corporate Finance assignment

and finals revision.. Oh nooo :O

Alright. I have to go out nowww. Ciao! 

Four Hundred and Forty Seven

After days of over-thinking,
I guess I've finally understand
why do we have to go through
this stage of our relationship :)

I spent a day chatting with my bff,
just trying to clear matters off and
yeahh, it was awesome Hehee! :D
We finally come to decision that
what's actually bothering our r/s
is just that 3 letter word, E-G-O.

No, I am not blaming you for this.
It is because I do understand that
urge to self-importance, sometimes.
P.S. I'm also a very stuck-up girl :P

So yea, I do hope that you come
and approach me/ talk to me first
everyday. You are the gentleman :)

Four Hundred and Forty Six

Btw I really missed you

These 5 words. So deep.

These few days, I've been trying so hard

to understand what these 5 words means.

Are you trying to say I want you back/

Sometimes, it only means I've crossed
your mind and you hope I'm doing fine?

Bear in mind that
You’re the one who’s listening to my problems.
You’re the one who’s comforting when I’m sad.
You’re the one who understands me everytime.

Nuff said. Safe journey back to Malaysia :)

Four Hundred and Forty Five

Yay! Welcome brand new month
October, please be good to me :)

I've just experienced the loss of
my beloved uncle few days ago.
Indeed, I was busy at his wake.
So now that everything is settled,
I have to get back with my life ;)

I actually had an exam that day :/
I chose to postponed to another
day and emailed my lecturer..
because when I revise my notes,
nothing make sense. That bad :O
So I'll just have to sit for it alone.

P.S. I am so glad to receive the
I miss you text, first thing in the
morning. You made my day :)